Admit One

[Tiger]

you know those times where you randomly just think something really horrible that you'd never do but your mind kind of just jumps to it on it's own like if you're at a subway thinking "i could push someone onto the tracks right now" or while your driving something like "i could smash this car into oncoming traffic by just twisting my hand" etc etc

yeah well apparently those are called intrusive thoughts and when paired with OCD they can consume your mind and you end up applying them to every situation and you can't not see everything through the lense of "how could i seriously fuck up everything i this situation"

yeah well i have mild OCD and there was like a 6-8 month period a few months ago where that sorta shit was all i could think about constantly and i was like 70% sure i was actually a sociopath or something for a while and it was terrifying and i didn't realize that that sort of occurrence can be linked to OCD until earlier this week so yeah i was convinced i just lost my mind for a while

was pretty terrible and i haven't really talked about it with anyone up until i found that out earlier for p obvious reasons

holy shit, that's what it is!

My brothers OCD is quite similar, he thinks that if he doesn't do all his rituals, patterns and counting then bad things will happen. As for knowing the opportunity to do bad things with choice not quite so much. He tries his best to prevent them.

I thought I was alone...